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Contentment killer

I have this issue where, whenever I feel most content or get something I've really wanted, I start wondering when the other shoe is going to drop, when God is going to wake up and realize that I don't deserve so many good things and start putting me in my place. It's ridiculous--I know it is. In my entire lifetime of experience, He has never done that to me. In fact, I have always been extremely fortunate in pretty much every aspect of my life. But, of course, rather than affirming all of the things I know to be true about my heavenly Father, all that does is make me think that it can't possibly continue. People who are really close to me will know that I am also like this with other relationships. Again, with no real reason. I've never had any truly bad or disastrous relationship experiences. Why do I think this way? And how do I get out of this vicious cycle?